Passiflora Edulis - This and All Lifetimes

Today L and I exchanged emails about the way towards healing his anxiety so that he can reduce his meltdowns and get on with the life he loves. I said:

 'I'll be here to help you in this and all lifetimes.' 

I said this without knowing that this truth is actually written into my name.

I was reminding him to take Passionflower. Passionflower is known by MDs (and parents, partners and spouses of those on the spectrum) all over the world a powerful, excellent and safe natural remedy for autism, anxiety, ADHD, OCD.

As I sent him links to remind him why he should take it, by chance I came across the information that my name in Indian means Passiflora. The Rakhi flower in India is called Passiflora Edulis. It turns out that the passionflower - that is me.

"this and all lifetimes"

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Earlier today I was having doubts about something I'm working on: it's a piece of writing about life for a family who have different members on different parts of the spectrum.

It helps general audiences become informed about autism and helps people on the spectrum feel less alone. It's funny, and sharp and poignant and touching.

Today I had doubts. Thinking I can't do this.
I'm not a good enough to to this.
I don't know enough to do this.

I was talking to angels saying if I can do this - if I am meant to do this, give me a sign.

And then I found about Passiflora. And Rakhi.
And now I  know what I'm here for.

And maybe...just maybe...maybe they were trying to tell me that I was born to this.

It was the name I was given when I was born.
I think it was given as a sign for me to realize who and what I am here for when I eventually woke up.

No more doubts.
I believe I can do this.
And it is is beautiful.


Thank you angels.